I am reaching out asking and needing help. I was recently diagnosed with Low grade B-Cell Maltoma. I am weary and I need someone who has or who's going through this to please help me with some advice. I will have my first Dr's. appointment today April 14. It has gone into another day already because I have been up since yesterday and I am still awake. I am very anxious, nervous, and all the other emotions that go along with finding out you have the Big "C". I just cannot seem to go to sleep.. So far, this hasn't been the start of a good year. Quite frankly I am a tad bit scared. I feel like it's like if I need to the hospital and I see all sorts of people there for a variety of reasons, but, when you go to the Big "C" Dr.'s office you know that everyone there is there for having some type of the Big "C" like yourself. Kinda daunting. I am attempting to be positive about all of this but the mortal in me makes me unsure. Can anyone help me? Thanks....
I realize how difficult this must be. We all try to be positive but it is easier said than done. I do know one thing...this site and many others is full of many survivors who have beat the worst of the worst so I hope and pray the same happens for you. Please feel free to reach out and let everyone know how you are doing. I am new hear but will check in as much as I can.
You're right at the start of this challenging journey that many of us have been on and it's terrifying. Of course you can't sleep - you're human. Things will start to feel clearer and the fear will subside to allow you to deal with your treatment and getting through that.
Practially, you might find it helps to take a notepad into your doctors appointments to write down the things they say. I did that and nobody minded, because it meant that I was able to refer back to what had been said when my memory was less than effective.
Being positive is hard, and it's also no possible all the time. Some days you'll want to stay in bed, hide and cry. And you need to let yourself do that occassionally because we can't always put a positive light on some of the difficulties we have to experience.
You will find your own ways of coping but make sure you ask people when you know what you need. If you stay quiet, people won't know what you want them to do.
Good luck with it all, and take care of yourself.